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Saturday.

I was watching The Dead Zone via Hulu.com this afternoon. It’s a pretty crappy movie. Basically, I was jonesing for a good Christopher Walken film, and I’d never seen this one. Now, first off, I find Stephen King’s writing to be absolutely unreadable. His syntax is flat and repetitive; his characters are two-dimensional and I don’t care about them; he can convey neither tension within the plot nor identification of the reader with any characters of other narrative elements. How he’s achieved his worshipful status is beyond me. But then again, I fail to understand how anyone could have cast a vote for Geo. Bush. Add to that, I’ve never managed to warm to David Cronenberg. His early films are cluttered with uninspired cinematography and inelegant editing. The aesthetics were meager, and I can only assume he never hired an art department. Now, his later films, are much better–they’re well shot, skillfully edited, and, as far as I’m concerned, their strengths lie in impressive art design. The Fly, Dead Ringers, Naked Lunch, Crash, and Spider, were all great films to look at, but none of them were particularly good movies. Not that I should be expecting much. Cronenberg is basically the Canadian Brian De Palma, another horribly mundane director who manages, inexplicably, to make many people quite excited. So, let’s return to the real reason anyone would watch The Dead Zone: Christopher Walken. I shouldn’t have even bothered. When the best performance in your star-studded movie is Tom Skerritt, it might be time for you to reexamine how you go about directing your actors. Basically, we just get one decent scene where Walken does what we want him to do–make us uncomfortable. It’s in the middle of the second act. I perked up, and then I realized it wasn’t really a new development, just a lucky accident. Oh, well. I guess I’ll just get Communion from Netflix–that’s grade-A Walken, where’s he’s chewing the scenery like some errant ravenous goat wandered in to the topiary festival.

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This morning I walked the two blocks to the little pocket park at Crofton and Constance, you know, where I shot Deborah’s film the previous day. The park had its official grand opening. There was live music, muffins and coffee, and even a big red ribbon which was eventually cut with a pair of huge novelty scissors.

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There were a few local artists. Oscar Alvarado was there, out walking the family dog. His brother, Robert Alvarado was there. I saw Jenny Brown, I believe. Barbara Jackson was in attendance. I think I saw Betty Ward. I’m sure there were more.

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There were several speakers. One, Tommy Adkisson (a Bexar County Commissioner) was rather long-winded, though quite amusing and informative. And when his time was up, they brought up Mary Alice Cisneros, the councilwoman for district 1, where the park is located–in fact, my district. Now I don’t know a lot about Mary Alice, but, at least today, she embraced brevity. I don’t think she spoke more than 20 words. Fine with me. I don’t care for blather. But so truncated was her “speech” than when fellow city council member David Medina, Jr. came up to say a few words, I was so hoping he’d give us something like:

“Wow, Mary Alice! Just, wow! I don’t think I can follow THAT!”

But, no he just took the podium said a goodly amount of sweet platitudes. What I found interesting was when he suggested that we consider the new Eagleland foot bridge, visible a quarter-mile away, just over his shoulder. He explained that that bridge was officially within district 5, his domain.

Oh, yeah? What do you know? I didn’t know the boundary was so close.

After the ribbon-cutting I headed back home. I’m not a home-owner; I’m very suspicious of gentrification; and personally I think that this lovely corner of my neighborhood was just as beautiful (if not more so) before this renovation project. But who am I too throw cold water on a giddy neighbor civic circle-jerk.

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Sunday.

CAM stands for Contemporary Arts Month. It’s a San Antonio tradition which has been going on for, as I understand, 25 years.

The CAM folks have decided to move the month from July (one of my favorite months– sunny and warm and filled with all sorts of possibilities!) to March (a cold, wet, drab time of the year, filled with more winter misery than spring giddiness). I suppose they have a reason, I just don’t know what it is….

Today was the first official event of CAM 2010 (or was it the first unofficial event of CAM 2010?). I’m talking about the Rebirth of CAM Parade. It began at 4pm near Roosevelt Park. That’s just a short stroll from Brackenridge High School; In fact, it’s a nice short walk from my house. I left at 3:40 and got there early. I walked along the new portion of the River Walk–the Eagleland extension.

I was a bit taken aback on how small the event was. Maybe 45 people showed up. There was no one from any of the TV stations. Though I understand there was at least one person from the print news.

Even though I wished there had been more people in attendance and that there was a greater level of energy and passion, it was still good fun. Perfect weather. And I got to see some luminaries of the local art scene–friends, acquaintances, people who I know yet who never seem to know me, and even, I suspect, a couple of enemies. Let’s see, I recall seeing Leslie Raymond and Jason Jay Steven (of course), Chuck Ramirez (showing a bit of leg), Rick Frederick, Anne Wallace, Cruz Ortiz, Rick and Angela Martinez (of Slab Cinema fame), Oscar Alvarado, ST Shimi, and, well, I know there were other people who I know or know of whom I’m forgetting.

People were out with their kids, dogs, bicycles. We all paraded along the new river walk path to Blue Star.

Here’s a link to a YouTube video a shot and hastily “edited.”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnPRb9AZGHQ

And, of course, some photos:

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It’s Oscar and Shimi, in Carny mode.

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ST Shimi, with, what else, a hoop!

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Earlier tonight I received a call from George Cisneros. He was over at the URBAN-15 Studios. He told me that a small film crew from LA was over there, needing assistance. Could I pop over and help out with their brainstorming session? I was vegging out to a bad 1950s monster movie on Netflix on-demand, so, I said, sure.

It’s just a three minute drive, and soon I was in the large kitchen at URBAN-15 drinking tea and eating grapefruit at the island counter with George and Catherine, as well as the artist Vincent Valdez and two young guys from California. It seems they are involved in a short video which is supposed to screen this Saturday. There were some technical issues which were concerning them. Neither George nor I were able to help them with our personal resources (mine being meager, and George’s being allocated to some serious current projects). All we could do was to fish through our contact lists and try and give them names and numbers of people who might be able to help.

I hope it all works out for them. They were all very gracious and clearly know what they’re doing, it’s just that they’re a long way removed from their usual support network. If they get what they need, I can only assume it will be because Vincent Valdez seems to be universally loved here in San Antonio. He’s an extremely accomplished young local artist who, even though he’s moved to LA, continues to come back home and helped to inspire other young San Antonio artists.

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Monday.

Things aren’t looking too swell for the Rev. Phil. His traveling pervy carnival show showcasing films which combine, at first blush, a seemingly incongruent ménage à trois of experimental films, erotica, and bicycles. His Bike Porn road show is slated to hit San Antonio on March 8th, but his planed venue suddenly crapped out. (I don’t know who it was, but it might be a cause for a boycott.) Check him out at his temporary website:

http://bikeporntour.blogspot.com/

I sent him an email with about four possible venues. However, with his short, exuberant emailed reply this evening, it seems clear he didn’t really read my email. I had made it pretty clear that the venue he thought would save his bacon, was truly unavailable. Actually, with the scattering of typos, I think he’d just enjoyed one too many Mickeys big mouths. My hope is that by the eventual light or day, he’ll reread the email and get on the stick.

I’m beginning to fear there will be no Bike Porn this year. Maybe the Fetish Fairly will climb out of those Velcro restraints and get to work. But time is flying, babe…. Time is flying.

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One of the problems of hanging around the San Antonio arts and cultural scene is that there are quite a few people who I know (and because of the free-floating chisme, I feel I know them quite well); yet these folks have never been properly introduced to me, so, actually we don’t truly know one another. Take for example, Agosto Cuellar, one of the very high-profile San Antonio fashion designers. He has no idea who I am. But there he was, late this morning, sitting in the next booth along the wall at Tito’s on S. Alamo. He was talking to a young friend. I sipped a few cups of coffee and enjoyed a couple of breakfast tacos. And while I was making notes in my little composition book to plan out my day, I’d occasionally pause to eavesdrop on what those guys were talking about. Nothing juicy. Just clever and amusing. Tito’s is a nice place for people-watching and people-listening.

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After my late breakfast, I headed to C4 to follow my breakfast notes and get some shit done.

It was mostly emails. A few phone calls. I also posted some photos and video on FaceBook. I never used to post this sort of information directly to social media sites. But after watching Venus shoot a video and post it immediately to FaceBook, I’ve begun to question if I really want to post video and photos on specific sites, and then try and find how various blogs, social media sites, etc. handle the embed codes. It always seems to be in flux. What a pain.

The truth is, I hate technology. My new camera shoots a particular flavor of HD video. I can push it and stroke it and modify it by using iMovie (the Bozo the Clown version of video editing software)…but my (admittedly old) professional video editing software I paid a shit-load for, can’t even recognize the files.

If I decided to eschew professionalism, I could just embrace this new camera. Shoot HD. Edit with iMovie. Publish to Vimeo or YouTube or, hell, FaceBook.

But the problem is, I can’t make heads nor tails of iMovie. It’s just nuts. And so, it looks like I need to buy the newest version of FCP. Or, um, I could also “buy” a copy. And by that I mean, steal. Everyone loves a pirate, right?

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Wednesday.

Okay. The Rev. Phil has found a home for his peripatetic perversity–that traveling Bike Porn show.

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It’ll be at C4 Workspace this coming Monday, March 8th. Bike Porn 3: Cycle Bound. Yep, it’s “amateur bicycle erotica.” So, slather that that banana seat with a dose of Armor All, don your ass-less chaps, and pedal out to the historical King William neighborhood. What? Don’t have a bike? Drive. Walk. Take the bus. Come on out. 7pm. 108 King William. Fetish fans don’t be shy. If you’ve a pervy proclivity towards pedal-powered perambulation, well, it looks like you’ve found your Monday evenings entertainment.

See you Monday!

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Because I’m the co-chair of the film committee of Luminaria, I’m pushing the responsibilities of my own Luminaria film to the very ragged edge of the deadline.

I shot the footage some time back in a huge HD format. And, really, it looks fantastic. But I need to scale the footage down to a Standard Definition format to edit. And, also, to print to DVD. I’ve been tinkering with various compression parameters off and on for weeks. I’ve finally found an arrangement that looks quite nice. Tonight I converted all the footage. I have my basic plan of attack for the structure. I’ve got my rough settings for some chroma key work. I’ve wrangled some additional images and footage to augment the original footage shot back in late 2009. Also, I have chosen a piece of open source music. This weekend I will layer on additional music and audio effects.

I’m feeling pretty good about the direction I’m going in.

My friend Deborah is opening her studio at Blue Star for this coming First Friday. She’s hanging art created by her Tao study group. She invited me to show some work as well. I was going to do my Virtual I-Ching, but I don’t have time to gather all the video clips. I think I will try to have some of my Luminaria piece put together and project that on the wall of her studio.

If not that, well, I’ll have something.

Come see work by Erik Bosse on March 5, First Friday, at the Blue Star Art Complex. Look for the Keller-Rihn Studio (AKA, the Green Tara Studio), the second floor of Building B.

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I’ll close on a photo I took with my iPhone from a bike ride this afternoon. I was out near Mission Espada, sitting on the levy slope above the San Antonio River. I was surrounded by lavender flowers and buzzing bees. It was sunny and warm. I say Spring has begin in San Antonio, March 3rd. So Be It!

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And about fucking time.

February’s Final Week in Southtown

Whew! The other day I finally merged four rambling blog entries I had been accumulating for about a week and a half. They are crammed into a massive and droning twelve page skim-fest. Sorry for those folks who are looking for their names. I dropped in only a few. Although I was pleased to see that Amanda Silva replied with a happy birthday wish to a previous blog of mine. Amanda’s a beautiful young woman whose uncanny intelligence, memory, and impeccable sense of timing has allowed her shine as an actress in quite a few locally produced films. I have had the great pleasure to work with her on several projects. Amanda’s completing her undergraduate studies this May from Texas State University in San Marcos. I wish her the best. I know her as a competent and strong actress, as well as a smart and sensitive filmmaker. But I know that her interest range much broader than theater and film. Let’s all keep an eye on where she might be headed. I mean, damn, this is the woman, who, as a teenager, invited me as a local filmmaker to her cable access talk show. You have to admit that’s just cool!

Monday was a moribund and sluggish day. I admit it–I checked out over the weekend. Just withdrew, shut down. Were it not for a bike ride on Sunday when it got up into the upper 70s (!!) I might as well been stuffed into some Yukon cabin with a team of underfed huskies huddled outside, casting their baleful and ravenous eyes at the only door.

I managed to come out for a gulp of fresh air on Monday, only to be hit with a barrage of demands from phone, email, texting, snail mail, FaceBook, Twitter, and directly to my face. Missing were the messenger pigeon, telegraph, and fax (the dead languages of the modern information community).

Now that I’ve found myself pulled back into helping promote the Josiah Youth Media Festival (the screenings will be at URBAN-15 Studios, of course, this July 8-10), I’ve a new batch of responsibilities. Add the constant chatter of Luminaria demands to the hopper, and things get a bit harried. I’m also working on four video / art projects with deadlines in the next four weeks. It’s a good thing I don’t have, like you know, a real job, or I’d be fucked.

I actually stoked the engine well enough on Monday so that I was able to end the day feeling quite productive.

Tuesday, however, was just weird. I got maybe four hours of sleep–which is strange because I almost never have insomnia–but even though I was up at seven, I didn’t get out of the house until a bit after noon. The fact is, it was cold, and it was sleeting. But I finally warmed myself up in front of my stove sucking on a hot cup of thick black coffee and butched it up headed out to face the day.

My first stop was KLRN. They submitted a proposal to the Luminaria Film Committee. Their “Fresh Cuts” program of local student work. KLRN is our local PBS affiliate. A very warm and charming woman by the name of Malinda was willing to have the DVD delivered to me, but, really, the KLRN studios are only a few short minutes away from me, on the northern cusp of downtown. So I drove over to pick up the disk.

Once I made the pick up, I was driving back south through downtown on St. Mary’s. The sleet was picking up. I watched my wiper blades shoving aside a decent accumulation with each pulse.

I was heading to C4 Workspace, to get some work done. I crossed Durango, and turned right on King William. I made a u-turn, so I could park on the other side of the street. At that moment it began to snow. As I came to a stop at the curb in front of C4, I saw my friend Venus Prado, who has a part-time desk at C4, bolt out the door. She was shooting video with her little digital point-and-shoot camera. Even with my windows rolled up, I could hear her shouting. “It’s snowing in San Antonio! It’s really really snowing in San Antonio!!!”

As I opened the door to my truck she came up, accosting me.

“It’s Erik!” she shouted. “He can confirm this! Is it really snowing in San Antonio?”

I had to give my confirmation. Indeed. It was snowing. In San Antonio.

Venus was shouting, dancing in the street, and, even gave me her camera so I could record her…well, her dancing in the street with snow-joy, as she pointed to the Tower of the Americas, so that no one would doubt that, yes, it was snowing in San Antonio.

Three minutes later, it stopped snowing. We went inside. Well, I probably went inside sooner. I’m not such a fan of snow. But then I didn’t grow up in San Antonio, where it almost never snows. It might hit Fredericksburg, maybe even Sanderson, but hardly ever San Antonio.

Venus was on a tear. As I made a couple of phone calls, she’d posted the video on FaceBook. The whole three minute micro snow flurry of the King William neighborhood. Hell, there I am, in the video, looking fat, awkward, in my alpaca hat nattering on and on about some nonsense.

Here’s the video (all I have is the FaceBook posting):

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/video/video.php?v=1368184925994

Now Venus also posted her video to the local Fox News outlet. I’m not saying she’s a fan of Fox–I suspect she isn’t–but it was the one local news source whose user-provided video interface was simple and easy to use. I mean, she really wanted to share this.

Share she did.

Here’s a link to a clip on the San Antonio Fox 29 News where they used two quick clips of Venus’ video.

http://www.foxsanantonio.com/newsroom/top_stories/videos/vid_1332.shtml

Venus is nuts, and I love her to death. She’s a poet, teacher, writer, theater nerd, artist, and on and on. She has hit the stage on several occasions for local performances of Rocky Horror, so it’s no surprise to find her effusive, extroverted, and just plain wonderfully silly. I’m glad to see that even though she’s recently become a mom, she can still plug directly into that pure joy of playful discovery.

My Tuesday was a burnt out unproductive waste of time. Venus’ Tuesday was a playful, giddy, and clearly unproductive day–but of course, all she did was play in the snow and play on the internet. But, hell, her play day, her snow day, connected her to so many of her friends and family via social media. Also, she managed to get her footage and her name onto the local news. Bravo–Venus rocks!

Here’s a bad photo I took, trying to capture this anemic snow flurry. Try and pretend to see the snow flakes falling.

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Monday I was hanging out at Deborah’s studio. She had company–a a friend was there, painting; also, a student of hers, was there, having a minor emotional crisis.

We were all drinking tea and coffee, listening to music, and talking about this and that. Eventually the other two had to leave. Deborah was grousing about having to put together an invitation for an art show. She belongs to a Tao group, and they are showing their art in her studio for the Blue Star First Friday in March.

I reminded Deborah that she can do this sort of stuff in her sleep. I told her I’d help. I happened to have my camera, so I took a photo of one of the paintings that will be in the show. It’s a playful abstract piece by a guy named Matthew.

After I transferred the imaged into Deborah’s computer, she went to work composing a digital file of the invitation. My part was basically moral support. As she shifted images and text about on her computer, I was lounging on her futon with my laptop and playing around with my GrandVJ software.

“Hey, do you want to be in the Tao Show?”

“What?” I looked up.

“I think your name’s going to look good on this invitation.”

“Um, well, sure.”

“Maybe a video,” Deborah said, turning to me with a smile, “Maybe your Luminaria piece.”

“Um, I don’t see how that can be Tao.”

“Yeah, there’s that,” she said. “Maybe a photograph?”

“Hell, put me down! I’ll come up with something.”

She nodded and typed my name into the invitation.

“You know,” she said softly, “this means you’ll have to start coming to the Tao meetings….” I’m not sure if she was serious, but it doesn’t sound so bad.

It looks like another of the artists from the Tao group wants to show a film. I’ll bring my projector. I was thinking of doing a film myself, but, tonight, while driving home from the grocery store, I hit upon this idea of a digital I Ching.

I use either a computer monitor or my projector to display the image. And using my VJ software, I assign two dozen video clips to be triggered by my little Akia mini keyboard. Anyone can walk up and I’ll do his or her I Ching. The easy coin-flipping method. Not only will I be able to tell the curious visitors the meaning the their randomly generated I Ching hexagrams, but they will also be able to see a projected image of six semi-transparent layers of video which I have shot. Each coin-generated hexagram will also generate a specific video collage. With a bank of 15 clips to chose from (none used more than once per projection) we’re looking at 120 combinations. (Well, I might be way off, my math skills are practically nil).

So, I’m still thinking. I’ll either make a little Tao-related film, or else I’ll play an interactive Tao video game. The bottom line is, I’ll be participating on First Friday this March 5th. I’ll be there, doing something. Deborah’s studio is the second floor in that building where Jump-Start is, Building B, I believe.

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Wednesday, Feb. 25.,

Speaking of Jump-Start, that’s where I was tonight. The monthly W-I-P (works in progress). I’m still amazed at how few people show up for this event. It’s just five fucking bucks, people. Not only do you get to see wonderful performances by dancers and performance artists, but you get to provide feedback during the critical response portion, and who knows, they might even listen to you.

Tonight was Jayne King, NRGMix, and PACDance (Palo Alto College).

Jayne’s piece suffered from an tech glitch. She was performing in accompaniment to a video projected off a DVD. Because of some sort of compatibility issue, the DVD kept freezing. As a Luddite who uses technology every damn day, I know that horror oh too well. If video formats and compression codecs and physical media and hardware and software and blah blah blah did what they claimed to do, I’d be a huge technophile. But they don’t, and so I’m not.

Each time the video froze, whether it was one second or four, I seized up myself. I’ve been there with pieces I’ve screened. But, poor Jayne, it must have been so much more intense, she was on stage, performing, and that DVD wasn’t just providing picture, but it had the audio track as well.

Oh, well. It was a nice piece. And Jayne kept here cool admirably. I liked the domesticity, where she used props from her own life. A rocking chair and a bicycle. I’ve seen Jayne riding around on her bike–we live just a few blocks from one another. And I’ve visited her house before, and seen the rocking chair. The cool thing about Jayne’s place is that she has this huge room–maybe a wall was knocked out–that’s basically empty with mirrors all around. Yeah, she’s created here own dance studio in her house. I don’t know how often she practices and works out, but she has an amazingly toned body. And so, it comes as no surprise when I see her perform a dance piece where she uses, as props, furniture usually found in the home.

The next piece was by NRGMix. There were four dancers who performed a high-energy nouveau salsa routine, dancing as two couples. They were young, beautiful, and spot-on on their moves.

A wonderful performance.

The closing piece was by some dancers from Palo Alto College. The choreographer was also one of the dancers. All I remember was that his name was Erik (or, maybe, Eric). Three woman, two men. They wore matching masks. I loved their energy and moves. Absolutely sexy, but in that weird abstract sort of way you get from modern dance…well, when it’s done well.

The best part of the W-I-P was when a guy sitting in the row in front of me looked around and said: “Hey, weren’t you here last month? Yeah, the guy who did the video.” I admitted that, yes, I was. He climbed over his seat and sat on my row. “Well, I want to sit closer and enjoy your quirky comments.”

What a nice stroke to my minuscule ego. I assume I’m basically a very forgettable person, but someone seemed to have remembered me.

Thanks!

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Thursday. Feb. 25.

I frittered away the day doing less than I should have but more than I could have.

There are maybe five people who I’ve let messages with and who I expect to get back with me, such as a certain someone with the CE Group, the marketing firm handling Luminaria. Three of them responded in one fashion or another. But not this certain someone from CE nor this certain other person who often insists that I respond “ASAP” to any email.

The bottom line is that I ask so little. And the truth is, I get even less than so little. It’s time to ask–nay!–DEMAND so fucking much.

But, really, I don’t know if I’d be comfortable making that major change in my personality. And as much as I resist becoming Erik Bosse, Asshole, I also find myself becoming exhausted in my role as Erik Bosse, doormat. Perhaps I could aim for some sort of middle ground. Yes, but it’s hard for me to dismiss this crazed hunger for vengeance.

Well, goodness, it looks like I have to set aside some time for a bit of introspection.

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The one productive activity today was my meeting at the Instituto Cultural de Mexico en San Antonio. This is where a major part of the film component of Luminaria will happen. I met with my fellow Luminaria co-chair Adam Rocha, and the director of the Instituto, Gabriela Franco Palafox (Ms. Franco is the blond in the linked photo).

It was a great meeting. Gabriela saved my ass. The Instituto is an artistic and cultural center placed here, in San Antonio, by the Mexican government to facilitate a cultural exchange. The Instituto has amazing programs and events. And Gabriela Franco Palafox is a perfect ambassador. She’s well-informed and well-connected, a perfect product of a Mexican liberal arts education. Add to that, a gracious host with a playful sense of humor, and, well, surly, we have one of my very favorite leaders within the San Antonio art community.

Gabriela saved my ass because I discovered that three of the artists I had slated to have their films projected on the outer wall of the Instituto were providing pieces with audio. Yes, I had known that, but I thought we could hook up a sound system and take it from there. But, no, the production committee wouldn’t have it. I can see their concern, but again, I ask for so little…..

Gabriela gave me a way out. She allowed Luminaria to project video in another one of her galleries.

She is currently my best friend.

Those of you who live locally and who have never been to the Instituto, check it out. Great art can be found here. Also, it’s located in one of the coolest parts of San Antonio, the HemisFair, a place where so many of the locals seem to think exists mostly for the tourists.

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Friday.

Personally I think planning outdoor events during March in San Antonio is just plain dumb. It’s still, strictly speaking, winder. And even though San Antonio is on the outer edge of balmy South Texas, it’s still a crap shoot, weather-wise. It’s just as likely to me cold and damp as pleasant. And why in god’s name did Contemporary Arts Month (CAM), a San Antonio tradition for 25 years, has decided to switch their month from July (when the weather is wonderful) to March? In the past, many CAM events happened outside.

The unpredictability and general yuckiness of March is why I prefer not to shoot exterior scenes at this time of year.

There’s this film Deborah has been wanting to shoot with a dancer on the banks of the San Antonio River. We got our dancer, a lovely young prodigy who’s been training in classical Indian dance. She’s from, I believe, Greece. She’s 12 or 13, and I’m sure was game for whatever was requested. But her father seemed a bit over-protective…though I can’t find fault there, as I believe that’s rather the very definition of fatherhood.

We were ahead of schedule, so Deborah suggested that we do a late afternoon shoot, to catch the low southern light. I was hoping for some extreme angular lighting, hitting both our dancer as well as slashing across the river in the background. We had a 1K Mole-Richardson, a 500w Lowell, and my bulky 500w ellipsoidal. Add to that a shitload of groovy gels in all the colors of the Rosco rainbow.

Oh, well. You have to be flexible and think fast on your feet. Actually, I was short on the run of extension cords. We’d planned to pull power from the home of our friend Barbara, but even with all the “stingers” (to use industry argot), I was still 35 feet short. I gave Phil a call. He’s my neighbor two doors down.

“Hey, mon, what’s up?” came his quick and chirpy Brit accent.

“Look, I’m over at Barbara’s place. We’re shooting a film. I’m in need of a really long extension cord, or, maybe, an inverter adapter to put into my truck’s cigarette lighter.”

I’d realized that as the only thing we needed power for (now that we were shooting with existing sunlight) was the CD player the girl would be dancing to; so a simple inverter would be another, valid option.

Phil, who was just two blocks away, came straight over, armed with both options. The inverter worked a charm.

A photographer friend of Deborah’s, who lives a couple of blocks away, was out walking with her little girl. She hung out for awhile. At some point she disappeared, only to show up later, on her bike (with a toddler-trailer). She now had her camera. And Barbara came out from her house, to see if she could help out. As there now was no need to move lights around, all I could do was ask her if she’d like to shoot some still images. Barbara is a very accomplished professional artist, whose work in painting, photography, and, recently, video, has been well received. She was happy to fetch her camera. On a side note, Barbara’s involved with SARA (San Antonio River Authority), on the board on on a committee, something. And this area where we were shooting has been designated as a new park, and the grand opening celebration will be tomorrow.

Other people who showed up by happenstance were my next door neighbors Dina and Bradley with their two kids. They were out enjoying the beautiful afternoon. Also, Hope came by. She lives across the street from me. Her husband, the artist Carlos Cortez, created the two faux bois benches recently installed in this little pocket park, just in time for the grand opening.

Here’s a photo I shot from the new park while sitting on one of Carlos’ benches:

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I don’t usually enjoy working with gawkers, but these were friends and neighbors, the people who make living in King William such a blast.

Here’s a quick raw screen grab from this afternoon’s shoot.

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I’ll share some of Barbara’s images when she gets them to me.

I still want to shoot down along the river at night with a brace of decently robust lights. Hell, I’d even brought my 3000 lumen projector as yet another light source. I was prepared…in a half-assed manner. I need to invest in a heavy duty gas generator which can manage 25 to 30 amps at 120 volts–this should handle somewhere in the 4 to 5 thousand watt needs for what I’d like to play with.

It’s only a question of money, right?

Playing Catch-Up…With a Dozen Pages

My apologizes in advance to the three-dozen or so readers of my blog, but, feel free to skim. I’ll not judge. I’ve written rather a lot during the last week or so, but never got around to posting this.

I will try and trim down some of the fat.

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Feb. 11.

The truth is I have only a marginal and minuscule skill-set. I’m shockingly unemployable for a fairly well educated man in his forties. But still I struggle along, occasionally even checking out the job listings on, um, Craig’s List. Don’t laugh. I’ve come out ahead, financially, from following up on a couple of postings. But, mostly, its a wasteland of shallow and uninspired projects slated for a grand YouTube premiere at some unspecified future date. That, or else the ever hopeful pornographers of tomorrow.

But sometimes I find a posting that’s just so sweet, so precious, I’m loath NOT to share. Here’s my current fave:

Movie Script/Writer/Insider (San Antonio)

If selected you must be willing to sign a confidentiality waiver. Meaning you are not to disclose details about this project to anyone unless you want to be sued.

A solid Hollywood Script can generate in excess of $300,000.00.

This is a non-paid job unless our script gets picked up (otherwise this is for 45% of the earnings from the script)

I have 3 awesome movie script ideas, but im not so great a writer. I am looking for someone not averse to hard work for get these projects done and I will break you off 45% of what we sell the scripts for.

This job could generate in excess of $900,000.00 if my scripts are picked up

James
email me 1st
then I will give you my phone number.

Now someone needs to clue James into the great (and dare I say, “insider”) secret. You know. You don’t need to be a “great” writer to write screenplays. In fact, most likely, it’ll work against you. I suspect that this “James” is a leg up on most Hollywood screenwriters in that he’s learned to log into Craig’s List. And, just looky here–he’s already generated in excess of 110 words! He’s already halfway there!

Ah, sweet Craig’s List! It’s where you go to find people to work for you for free.

I shouldn’t be so harsh. I met with Ranferi Salguero yesterday. He’s gearing up to produce a feature this May. And, yes, he’s placed a posting on Craig’s List looking for actors. What makes Ranferi different is that he’s already shown he can deliver the goods. In 2007 he wrote and directed the excellent short film, “Roses and Graves.”

If you’ve not seen it, take a look:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YfvhUKLtxUQ

The film played the festival circuit. It secured Ranferi his IMDB listing. The script he’s currently planning to produce and direct is one he’s been working on for several years.

When he emailed me a copy, I was happy to give it a read. His script for “Roses and Graves” was simple, spare, and quite effective. I was hoping for more of the same. This script, “Embracing Karma,” is more layered and nuanced. I always have a hard time giving good feedback to a screenplay because they’re not written to be good. They’re written to facilitate the making of a good movie. In fact, if you can prove yourself as a good “reader” in Hollywood, you can make a nice, secure living. Good screenwriters are as common as free kittens with ringworm. But good script readers are hard to find. They’re the gatekeepers that novice writers have to prove themselves to, not producers. A screenplay’s not a novel. It’s more akin to a libretto, or a series of choreographic phrases. In short, it’s a template which a group of trained and talented individuals build into a fluid and coherent work.

I feel I understand screenwriting and film making well enough to see the movie waiting within Ranferi’s script. It’s interesting that Ranferi is also a sculptor (I believe he works in stone). It was either Michelangelo, or perhaps Irving Stone writing about Michelangelo, where the finished statue was described as having already existed within the block of stone before the artist came and knocked away all the extraneous material and succeeded in freeing the form within. The fact is, I’ve read hundreds of scripts, many of them are shooting scripts of films I love. And, as literature, all of them are awful. Well, with the exception of Dennis Potter–he managed, for some reason, to elevate screenwriting to a level of high literature (check out the script to “The Singing Detective”). I feel I have a good sense of seeing the movie within a script. Add to that the fact that I know Ranferi’s work, and I’m looking forward to seeing his first feature. He’s a serious, sensitive, and above all an honest artist.

If anyone sees postings from him asking for assistance, his sparse budget might not allow for much in the way of compensation, but be aware that he knows what he’s doing. He’s committed to creating work that he, and all those involved, can be proud of bringing to the screen.

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I had to take advantage of the sunny sky and semi-warmth. Sixty degrees is too damn frigid for me–hitting my moderate 12 miles per hour cycling speed does increase that wind-chill a bit–but I sucked it up and hit the Mission Trail.

(I should point out that there’s this guy whose blog I read–Durango Texas (he keeps me up to date with my previous home of Fort Worth, Texas)–and this dude swims in an outdoor pool just about every day–including today, when it was 33 degrees in Ft. Worth with at least half a foot of snow on the ground. I think he’s nuts. But, really, I shouldn’t talk. I still haven’t fixed my water heater. I guess, it’s all a matter of perspective, eh? Check him out at: http://durangotexas.blogspot.com/ )

I made it home in time to cook up a huge mess of carnitas, drenched in a sauce of mango nectar, lime juice, and pureed red anaheim chili peppers, mixed with chili pequin, dried anchos, annatto seeds, and sesame seeds all powdered in a coffee grinder I keep just for spices. I ladled it all into a big plastic portable container. Also, in another container, I put a huge amount of steamed jasmine rice.

This was my offering to the potluck component of the annual Martian Madri Gras Party at URBAN-15. This is when George and Catherine Cisneros invite their dance and drum ensemble members, their families, and other folks who are friends of URBAN-15. The idea is to get together and watch a live broadcast of the Carnaval parade from Sao Paulo, Brazil. URBAN-15 does a wide range of dance, music, film, laser, etc. performances, along with their educational outreach. But they are mostly known for Carnaval San Anto, their drum and dance performances along the lines of the Brazilian Carnaval Parades: this is how hundreds of thousands of people know them who attend the Fiesta events here in San Antonio; and this is how the tens of millions of people know them who have seen them perform for at least two presidential inaugural parades, the most recent being for Obama. So it should come as no surprise that the URBAN-15 dancers and drummers are keen to see what the most lavished and heavily financed dancers of this genera are doing. The “Martian” part is because…well, let me quote from the invitation: “When the Martians look down at Earth on Saturday, February 13th, they will see the entire Earth in elaborate celebration…preparing for Ash Wednesday / Lent. That is why we call it ‘The Martian Madri Gras.'”

Last year the party was down in the basement space. Tonight, it was up in the larger space which George and Catherine refer to as the Sanctuary, which, back when the building was a church, is precisely what the space was used for.

However, because Carnaval is giddy in its embracing of the more lascivious and base of human impulses, well, I wonder what the good people who once worshiped in this space would have thought if they were to have visited and seen the televised images of women who, for all practical purposes, are dancing nude atop huge, ornate, sumptuous floats–bloated, ambulatory Golden Calves? We may never know.

And, as regards those nekkid Brazilian babes (fem, him, or trans-gen), I find myself wondering what’s really going on in that country if the acme of femininity is a vivacious, young, healthy person who resembles a beautiful young man who has spent half a million dollars to look like a beautiful young woman who has spent a hundred thousand dollars to look like an air brushed Playboy centerfold? This is a freak show. But, what do I know. I think that Catherine Keener, a woman older than me (and I’m fucking old) is one of the sexiest things around. I guess I’ve just out-grown my appreciation of kitsch and camp.

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Feb. 17.

A strong day. I almost might say I was productive. I finally deposited a couple of checks which had been sitting around for weeks. Now that my previous bank has been swallowed up by a larger financial entity, I have much more convenient options. It used to be that the closest branch was about a twenty minute drive away. Now I just motor to that weird little bit of the east side which has oodles of charm. There’s a stretch of South Hackberry between Florida and Steves that has a funky, retro personality all it’s own.

I stopped by El Sol Bakery on S. Presa for a couple of empanadas. For a Mexican bakery they’re a bit pricey, but they push the healthy whole wheat fare. This isn’t really my thing, but it’s a nice family run place. And the food’s damn good.

Because I had a bit of a late start on things, this was my noon-time lunch. I headed to C4 to get some work done. I caught up on some paperwork, email, and had a nice phone conversation with Veronica.

My next stop was Havel Camera Repair. They came highly recommended from people who should know, like my friend Alston Cox, and my Luminaria Film Committee co-chair, Adam Rocha. I’d stopped by back on Monday to get a quote to reattach one of the strap anchors which had fallen off. I could hear the back fastener rattling around inside the body. The folks at Havel quoted what seemed a pretty high price, but then explained that the design of the Panasonic Lumix was such that when the case was cracked open, some of the tiny circuit boards also have to be delicately removed. I was cautioned not to use the camera while that piece of metal was rattling around inside, as it might cause a short. I hadn’t thought of that, but I had noticed that when peering into the little raw wound, that tiny exposed hole, I could see coppery metal circuitry leads. I assume that the camera is still under warranty, but I’ve been down that road. It’s just not worth the aggravation to ship a camera off to the manufacturer and not know when you’ll see it again. Havel will get it back to me in at least five days. Send it off to Panasonic, I’ll be lucky to see it in six weeks.

I’d scheduled by camera drop-off in the West Basse region because I was meeting Seme Jatib for, as she said, a cafecito. I’d suggested the Olmos Perk, as it was in her neighborhood, and close to Havel’s.

Seme has returned from a two week gig running a modern dance workshop in the Ecuadorian city of Guayaquil. I only wish my life could be so exotic. I was hoping she’d tell me all about the work she’d done with the kids in Ecuador, but the conversation veered into that realm of commiseration in which people who work in the arts in San Antonio so often find themselves. I’d made some hints about this to Seme when we’d first met. I’m talking about how poorly we in San Antonio treat our artists. My fear was that Seme would be turned off by this backwater little town. I could go so far as to say the San Antonio is indicative of how little regard this entire country has for the arts. We’re so provincial in this country. We believe the puffed-up propaganda that USA is the best. And we sneer at other countries. Especially Mexico. But anyone who’s spent time in Mexico knows that the arts enjoy a much higher degree of respect and importance. There is not the same problems in finding audiences there.

Here in San Antonio, those people involved in the arts–not just the artists themselves, but those involved in education as well as the administrative side of art and cultural institutions–have taken as gospel that there is no money in the arts. And so, artists have become charity cases. They are expected to provide their services for free, or, if they’re lucky, small honoraria.

The fact is, the economics of this situation is pretty fucked up. San Antonio used to be a solid blue collar city, with several factories providing jobs. Not so, these days. We’re now chiefly a service-related economy (much like the rest of America…a country which no longer seems to make anything). Service? Mostly these services are connected to tourism. And why do people come to San Antonio? For the culture. And every time we allow some fucking Rain Forest Cafe to open up shop on the San Antonio River Walk, we loose that distinctive local flavor. Every time we allow the Clear Channels and the Time Warner Cable companies to muscle into the local information and entertainment markets, crushing the local media, we loose more of what makes this city appealing for these tourists. And when the city of San Antonio scrambles to bring the latest abortion created by Andrew Lloyd Webber to grace the stages of our premier venues, but does nothing to facilitate the staging of original local productions, well, all is lost. No one comes to San Antonio to see Andrew Lloyd Webber (well, at least I hope not–personally I hope no one goes to NYC to see that shit).

Now I understand that funding is tight. And there are only so many warm bodies in this city who can be enticed to buy tickets. But, let’s get back to the basics. Let’s remember that the artist, those creative folks–writers, actors, musicians, dancers, poets, painters, filmmakers, sculptors, et al.–they are the reason people put their asses in those seats. Not the administrators, nor the marketers; not the PR flacks, event staff, reviewers, critics, social media finaglers, or even word-of-mouth. Nope. All those people are antecedent to the work, the reality created by the artists, the performers, or, as George Cisneros often simplifies it–the makers.

Seme and I came to an agreement. We both often follow our hearts and put enormous amounts of our time into creative work for little return. For instance, when we collaborated on our piece for the January W-I-P, we had our own agendas. Seme wanted to reach out to the dance community in San Antonio, her new home. What I got from the piece was the chance to work with a serious artist, whose work, vision, and integrity I found positively inspiring. And I like people who inspire me.

I had not known that the W-I-P paid an honorarium. They do. Not much, but something. Seme shared the stipend with me. (I should point out that W-I-P is a collaboration between Jump-Start and the San Antonio Dance Umbrella, and I’m not sure who pushed for this honorarium. However, Jump-Start, for whom I provided a video which screened at the annual performance party, contacted me for a mailing address so that they could send me a complementary ticket for a Jump-Start show. This seems small. But it’s a crucial gesture. It’s what, as Seme and I were talking about, comes down to a simple matter of respect.

We, here in San Antonio, need to remember that these arts events wouldn’t happen without the artists. I think it’s time that every local arts and cultural organization needs to reexamine their mission statement.

I know there has been some sniping and bickering concerning Luminaria in San Antonio. It’s become overly politicized. I mean, shit, even David Rubin, curator of contemporary art at SAMA, recently responded to a FaceBook call for audiences for Luminaria by making a statement that he’d rather not partake of the evening. Honestly, I don’t know what he meant. Surly he’s not boycotting the event, right? I mean I loved the curatorial job he did back when with the show on Time at Blue Star. And I’m certainly going to attend his Psychedelic show he’s putting together at SAMA. Perhaps I misunderstood his FaceBook comment.

Anyway, I brought up Luminaria because there is a honorarium of $200 (or is it $250?) for accepted artists. This is significant for individuals artists…not so much for ensembles or group collaborations. But, again, this is an honorarium. It’s about respecting the artistic process and the makers.

W-I-P and Luminaria might be scraping by with the most minor of real and material respect and regard for the artists, but let’s applaud them for adhering to a tangible baseline. And from here we can build up.

Maybe one day we, in this country, will learn how to reward our artists for the work they do so well, and stop forcing them to do those things which it is not in their nature to do–you know, marketing, public relations, building audiences. Because, you know, there’s some wonderful professional folks right here in town who do great work along those lines.

But I digress.

It was great to see Seme after two weeks! We made some basic plans for our next collaboration. It’ll be pretty good. Yep. Because we both agreed that our piece back in January kicked major ass. We’re on the same page there.

After meeting with Seme I needed attend a Luminaria steering committee meeting. I had about half an hour of down time, so I drove home. I was rewarded by finding my latest B&H purchases sitting on my front porch.

This desire to begin playing around with VJ software has made me cognizant of these USB MIDI devices. I’d ordered a couple of cheap pieces of hardware. The software I’m working with lends itself to two basic devices. A keyboard for selecting a video clip. And a mix board to define which clip is being viewed.

First off, I should say what VJ software I’m working with. It’s called GrandVJ, created by a company called ArKaos. The interface is geared towards two pieces of hardware–keyboard and mixer. I found that Korg made small devices to fit the bill. However, as I looked at the comments for these things on Amazon, I decided that the mixer (the Korg Nano Kontroler) is great, but the Korg keyboard sucks. And so I took the suggestion from the comment-crowd and spent an extra 15 or so bucks for the AKAI LPK25.

I wasn’t able to play with my new toys. I had to rush to a meeting.

Things went pretty well. It looks like Luminaria is striding forward smoothly and intelligently. The financial report was encouraging. It seems that a couple of the major corporate donations what were unconfirmed have given us the green light. This is fucking great! The problem is, they’ll take their time in making the funds available. Not quite so good. We have vendors who don’t like to wait.

This isn’t my problem. So, I’ll cluck my tongue and head out the back door,

I made it to C4 around 6:30. A jazz band was practicing there–think playfully hip Sinatra. I was back in my corner at my desk digging the music. I began to play around with my new toys. The Akai keyboard worked perfectly. But the Korg Nano Kontrol device needed software downloaded. I was expected to program its parameters. Well, it took me about an hour to figure out all that programing stuff. It’s okay, but really it should be better. Eventually I headed out. I wanted to plug all this stuff (hardware and software) into my computer and my projector at home and iron out the kinks.

I had a lot of fun.

And after an hour or two, I decided to take a break. I kept the AKAI USB keyboard plugged in and opened GarageBand.

Yeah. This is damn cool–playing, badly, along with music off Pandora.com.

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Feb. 16.

There’s this meme that’s been floating around our fair town for a few years (at least). I suspect if I were to ask around some I could discover who started it, but the mystery is rather pleasant. If you’re lived here, you’ve seen the bumper stickers. “Keep San Antonio Lame.” This is our response to the slogan for that city to the north: “Keep Austin Weird.” Fort Worth has their own, in the “Keep Fort Worth Funky” campaign.

Now I’ve seem two basic reactions in San Antonio to this heady affirmation of lameness. One is that this is essentially ironical–a playful, admonishing finger which challenges us, San Antonians, to fucking get it together, already! And I can respect that position. Hell, yeah, we need to stop sucking so much. However, the more nuanced interpretation is sweeter. And by that I mean a less accusatory delivery. We really are expected to keep on being lame. You see, there are some wonderful things going on in this town, but we need to keep it on the down-low, you know, under wraps, because if people, and by that I mean outsiders, realized what a great place this is, we’ll turn into Austin. And for those who live out of state, the bastardization of Austin, Texas is the greatest cautionary tale told across this state, whether in smoky bars, around campfires, or pediatric waiting rooms. “What the fuck happened to Austin? It’s unlivable. I used to love going to 6th Street and Hippy Hollow. But now you gotta fight the assholes!”

But I digress. I’m writing about San Antonio. The lameness keeps us small. The community is small–well, the community I belong to: the art and cultural scene. My father ran a nationally respected antiquarian bookstore in Dallas for four decades. He belonged to a small community. And, how did he put it once? “Not a sparrow falls in bookdom that we all don’t hear it hit the ground.” And so one would expect that the San Antonio art and cultural community would be aware of the Monday morning press conference to promote the 2010 Luminaria Arts Night in San Antonio. Okay, last I looked, there were around a thousand Luminaria 2010 artists (I’m talking folks involved in music, dance, fine arts, literature, film/video, and theater). So, I’m wondering why, when I ambled over to the entrance arch to HemisFair Park in downtown San Antonio for this press conference, all I saw were fellow Luminaria steering committee members, people from the CE Group (the marketing firm helping to promote the event), the press, and folks from the city bureaucracies associated with Luminaria (Downtown Operations, the mayor’s office, the Office of Cultural Affairs, etc.). Sure, there were about twenty people who were brought in to perform for the TV news crews (a group of musicians, folkloric dancers, and some actors from a local theater company). But, other than that, how many artist who are involved with Luminaria decided to show up? Well, some of the folks sitting on various committees are also Luminaria artists, so they were already there. But, other than that? I saw one. And he was interviewed by at least two of the TV stations who showed up. Is this because we’re lame?

The fact is, I only knew to show up because I was at an event Saturday night and encountered one of the Luminaria co-chairs. As I was leaving I shouted out: “There’s a press conference Monday, right?” “Yep. Nine am.” And so, come Monday morning (no reminder email) I drove to C4 Workspace to have a cup of coffee before walking downtown. I vaguely recalled that the press conference was to be held under the HemisFair entrance arch. I would have enjoyed confirmation from an email, but that didn’t happen. You might think that the information about something as important as a press conference involving the mayor would be plastered all over the Luminaria website or even the Luminaria FaceBook page. Nope. Nada, So, where is this lameness coming from? It’s coming from EVERYWHERE! Careful…that warm breath you feel? Don’t move too quickly. I’m pretty sure it’s there, breathing on your neck. That San Antonio lameness. It’s you and me and it’s everyone and it’s everywhere. Check it out. There were maybe a hundred individuals who showed up at the Luminaria Artist meeting back on Feb. 9th–they were artists as well as individuals representing dance troupes, theater companies, and so on. They were all told about the press conference, and all were invited to attend.

Maybe they’re all as bad at taking notes as myself. That seems a stretch, though. Maybe they were busy? But wait, many of those Luminaria artists teach. And as today was Presidents Day, I do believe they had an opening in their schedules.

Actually, it was a very pleasant press conference. Kudos to the CE Group and all who helped make this happen. Here are a couple of photos. Our boyish and wonderfully articular mayor, and a lovely folkloric dancer.

Luminari 2010 Press Conference

Luminaria 2010 Press Conference

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I wasn’t aware just how much I hate Valentines Day. But this year it really sucked. Maybe the problem was it was on the weekend. People often call me up on the weekend because, even though I’m often free on the weekdays, other people aren’t. But people involved in relationships don’t often socialize beyond their significance others on this day of love. I mean, well, really, the bottom line if you don’t want to give anyone the wrong impression–you know what I mean–you just don’t contact other people on St. Valentine’s Day.

My phone records at quite instructive. Eleven incoming calls on Saturday. Seven in-coming calls on Monday. People are always needing this or that from me, and I’m generally okay with that. But, Sunday? Radio silence.

St. Valentines Day…it needs to be repealed.

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Feb. 20.

I’ve got the basics of my VJ setup pulled together. Today my copy of GrandVJ arrived. This is the software I’ve settled on. I’ve been playing around with it for about three weeks in a free demo version. Earlier in the week my little AKAI LPK25 micro keyboard arrived. This is used as a switched to select video clips or effects. It’s a USB MIDI device which is also pretty groovy to run through GarageBand and pretend I’m some preposterous prog rock blowhard. Also, on the same day, my Korg Nano Kontrol USB MIDI mixer arrived. This allows me to select from two channels and eight layers of video sources, allowing for cross fades and fast manipulation of levels of opacity of individual outputs. I have my NEC 3000 lumen projector. And, well, a bunch of stuff which I already own. I’m set.

At the moment I’m running my little white plastic MacBook with the ArKaos GrandVJ in the 1.2 Beta version (it supports the Korg). I’m feeding my external monitor cable into my projector; the projector’s VGA out-put goes into my ancient and bulky Gateway monitor. My cheapo USB hub is working overtime. Off of it I’m running the keyboard, the mixer, and my wireless mouse. The other USB line into my laptop is being used by a one terabyte external drive. The mini audio out from my laptop goes straight to a pair of old Labtec computer speakers (which came with, I believe, my very first computer)–they’re blasting out music from the browser window playing semi-random music off Pandora via my wifi network. And, finally, my dependable Panasonic DVX camcorder is recording a table, flickering with candles, and its live video feed, coming into my MacBook via the FireWire port (I believe my model was the last MacBook to be shipped with FireWire)–GrandVJ is happy to allow this live video feed to be shunted into any of these video source layers (I can also activate my computer’s web cam as another live video source choice).

I love my little computer. It’s happy (so far) chugging along with all this happing within its innards. The only ports I’m not using are the hardwire ethernet input and the mini audio input–hey, that’s what I could do–plug in a microphone…ah, but all my audio equipment’s at C4. But, really, this is enough for, you know, dicking around.

A/V Nerd Alert

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I got a call early this afternoon from Havel. Havel? Now I know why everyone in town sings their praise. I got my camera back in two days. And it’s doing just fine. Thanks for asking.

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I found myself floundering about a bit today, trying to make sense of a couple of upcoming events I’m involved in. Luminaria and the Josiah Youth Media Festival. Really, I hate promoting events –even ones which I care about. I tell people, quite explicitly, that I’m not suited for this sort of work. People–yeah, they just don’t fucking listen. (Really, this is getting out of hand. I mean, there are people who think I’m simply tremendous, if for no other reason than I believe it’s important to listen to people. I was raised that when you’re listening to someone, you give him or her your undivided attention. Sure, this person might be an asshole, but when you’re listening, your job is to listen. Don’t starting fucking around with that smart phone. Don’t let your eyes drift over to that pretty shiny object in the background. Jeeze, what’s happened to people?)

Mostly I was looking forward to meeting with Deborah. We’re working on a collaborative project, and as for all that bullshit that comes falling down on some projects, it’s never stressful or irritating with Deborah. Why the hell can’t everyone be as reasonable as the both of us are with one another?

We met up at the location where we’ll be shooting next week. It’s an exterior night shoot. And even though we’ll be bringing in our own lights, we wanted to check out the place once the sun had set. The fact is, Deborah had done a photo shoot at this location maybe three years back. I was there to shoot some video. I was using a small DC/AC car inverter Carlos had loaned me. So, we have something of an understanding of the place. And this time around we have an artist friend who lives in a house about 150 feet away. That’s no problem with some extension cords (however, I’ve got to crunch the numbers, you know, how much wattage will we need for lights, because if it’s over the amperage of the line we’ll be using, we’ll need to make sure to divide between two breakers).

I was hoping that we’d be able to see the Blue Star silos in the background, but it looks like they’ll be lost in the dark distance. The eye can see them fine. But the camera? Not so well. But that’s okay. There’s plenty of wonderful things to illuminate.

Silos at Night

Deborah mentioned she was hungry. I said that Cafe Cinema was happening over at the Radius, and there should be some food there. But she said she was in the mood for salad or soup or something wholesome. I was fine with that. She mentioned Green Cafe or Big Kahuna. Green Cafe is the local vegan restaurant. The food is wonderful. It’s not crazy expensive, but still a bit rich for me.

I wanted to try Big Kahuna. Deborah had been there before, and she had described it vaguely as “this sort of Asian place with healthy food and really nice people.”

Big Kahuna is at 741 W. Ashby Place, just across from the San Pedro Playhouse. The name is a carry-over from a previous restaurant. The cuisine is, for the most part, Vietnamese. The menu is small. And when our host recognized Deborah (everyone of cultural or artistic importance in San Antonio knows her), he began pushing off menu items.

If you ever visit this place, and the waiter or the owner recommends something, jump on it.

Great food, great service, wonderful ambiance. Bottom line, it’s inexpensive, tasty, wholesome, honest food.

The place has a nice vibe. They have had workshops and events on meditation, yoga, gardening, and they have film screenings.

http://bigkahunasa.com/

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The other day I was watching on, of all things, YouTube, a feature-length movie, “Synth Britannia.” This is a documentary about the rise of New Wave synth bands in England during the tail end of the 70s and the into the 80s.

Most of this stuff I never got too deep into. Mostly Euro Disco crap that dominated the MTV realm. However, it’s a well-structured historical documentary The reason I kept watching was that they gave a bit of time to some of the more interesting artists and groups using synthesizers. Wendy/Walter Carlos, Chris and Cozy (of Throbbing Gristle fame), Cabaret Voltaire, Gary Newman (who’s tragically under-rated), and John Foxx (who’s tragically unknown). I quite enjoyed the film, even though it’s mostly aimed at those folks who feel that Yazoo is the shit (and that ain’t me).

Kvetching Sotto Voce From the Sidelines

Tuesday, February 9th, 2010.

I’ve had at least two people today ask me how old I am. The best response I could stomach was “somewhere between 45 and 50.” This is the truth, though watered-down. And this is quite a bit older than I want to be. To be honest, I really don’t know. I could certainly whip out my drivers licenses and clear up the confusion, but denial suits my mood today.

I began the day catching up on my RSS feeds (I’m glad I shifted over to Google Reader, and linked all my exported feeds through Feedly: clean, cool interface).

Around 10:30 I drove to Eddie’s drive-thru for some breakfast tacos and enjoyed a late and leisurely birthday breakfast with a pot of Cafe Bustelo, con leche. I was watching, via NetFlix online, a Terry Pratchett adaptation made for British TV. It wasn’t until about 1:30 that I decided to check my email.

Shit! A fast and hectic cluster of Luminaria-related emails were demanding where a certain mountain of paperwork was. Seems I was supposed to get all this stuff to the staff of one of the co-chairs weeks ago. I guess I missed that meeting. I made some phone calls, sent some placating emails, and then I jumped in the shower. My original plan for the day was entirely low-impact. I’d lounge about, and perhaps accept a invitation to a free birthday lunch from amongst my legions of fans, and eventually make it to a Luminaria steering committee meeting at 4:45…followed by the grand Luminaria Artists Meeting at 6pm. But now, I had to fix a fuck-up. (No problem, really. It seems none of my rabid fan-base ever pulled it together and tracked me down to treat me to a birthday lunch this year. Aw.)

I drove to C4 Workspace and began abusing the little copier machine by forcing it to cough out about sixty copies in it’s halting, palsy fashion. Don’t get me wrong. This printer/fax/scanner/copier is great for the occasional use, but it ain’t no industrial machine. However, I was able to deliver all the paper work to the Southwest School of Art and Craft by the deadline. And because when I visit the Southwest School, I always park in the downtown library parking lot, it also gave me an excuse to return a book that was about to become over-due.

I was able to return to C4 and print out some forms I needed for the Luminaria meetings and then head off to the meetings at the Pearl Stables, making it there just in time.

I grabbed a seat at the far end of the joined tables. Soon I found myself sitting next to Susanne Cooper, co-chair of the dance committee. I’d met Susanne from working on Luminaria 2009. But finally I was able to have a one-on-one with her. We bounded over lunch a couple weeks back. I like her a lot. We can now–if the situation calls for it–bitch and kvetch sotto voce from the sidelines. Warm and solid friendships have been build on less.

By a quarter to six we walked down from the mezzanine level of the Pearl Stables and joined the artists who had been slowly wandering in and randomly taking their seats at the large round tables in the main space. The idea was that after some introductory remarks by the Luminaria Co-Chairs, Paula Owen and George Cisneros, the roomful of artists would be told to cluster, by discipline, in regions of the room where the discipline co-chairs were seated.

I was sitting stage left with my film co-chair, Adam Rocha. A few of the film folks had found us already. But by the time we moved to the breakout session, those other film folks came to join us. I’m a bit perplexed why two artists who were accepted into the film category who I swear I saw walk into the room never bothered to come and join the rest of us. What happened, Pete? Michele? I distinctly remembered popping an Altoid. And as for my “I Fucked Jessica Tandy” t-shirt, I haven’t worn that in ages. Was there some other manner in which I offended?

While Adam and I were talking to the filmmakers–explaining the venues and asking for questions and feedback–George Cisneros walked up on stage and leaned into the microphone.

“If I could have your attention, please. One of our steering committee members has a birthday today. Erik Bosse, co-chair of the film committee is, um, thirty-one years old today.”

There were some titters from the obvious lie. And there was also more applause than I warranted. Yes, a majority of the filmmakers knew me personally…and maybe another thirty people in the room. But when the singing of Happy Birthday began, it seemed like most of the 100 or more people in the room were joining in.

Twenty years ago I would have been mortified. But, really, it was sweet. In fact, this is what George had been talking about earlier in the evening when he had stressed that if any artist felt that he or she had not been treated with respect, please, let us know…because, well, this community is too small to allow such discord to exist.

The truth is, as wonderful as this was, I’ve become a bit jaded. I blame Nikki Young. Damn, it was she who sang happy birthday to me back in 2008 at the Ruta Maya coffee house. I adore Nikki. Sadly I spend too little time in her company. (She’s smart, funny, playful, and, of course, quite lovely–and these qualities are guaranteed to break a strong man’s heart at a hundred paces.) Maybe my wish for 2010 is to spend more time in Nikki’s company. Hmm, that sounds wise….

So, thank you so much Nikki! The fact is, she managed to get George up on stage (though he’s rather hammy, so it was probably fairly easy) and get this little sweet surprise into gear.

There are times when I want to leave this city. But things like this–Nikki, George, and a whole room of artists–well, these freaky events continue to hold me captive. There is no other city like San Antonio.

After the meeting Victor and Sandra asked if they could take me out to dinner. Carlos was asking the same question. We settled upon Sam’s Burger Joint, as it was within walking distance.

It was a wonderful night. Yep. I spent it with: Victor Payan and Sandra Sarmiento (aka Payan y Pocha); Carlos Pina (of Haunted House Studio fame); Sandra Torres and her daughter Jessica Torres (the preeminent San Antonio teen filmmaker).

We chatted and we schemed…and we caught up on the chisme of San Antonio arts and artists. This is always an eye-opener. The art scene in San Antonio is damn small. We found even more nodes of interconnectedness. Forget literal blood-ties–take a peek at the other forms of connectedness. The fact is, we’re all family.

It was a very wonderful night with dear friends and more love than I deserve.

Thanks!

Wrestling With Shifting Priorities

I’m more than a bit chagrined that I didn’t make it to any screenings at this year’s CineFestival. Perhaps I’m miffed that this is the first time in four years (five?) I wasn’t invited to help as a judge. I’d gotten used to swanning in with my VIP pass. Though, earlier in the week, I had the best of intentions–I was planning to visit Saturday and Sunday. In fact, Thursday I drove over to the Guadalupe for the San Antonio’s Film Commission’s CineFestival Party, but when I showed up (early, I’ll admit) there were only three people there, and the one person I knew (a San Antonio cultural luminary) was studiously ignoring my presence. I decided to decamp. Friday I was busy preparing for my screening of a video piece at the Keller-Rihn Studio over at the Blue Star art complex for First Friday. As for Saturday, I took a long bike ride–and later inexplicably feel into a dark funk. And as for Sunday, the day I really should have gone, I found myself with the opportunity to spend the day with a pretty girl I’m very fond of…so, well, yeah, of course I went with that. And now CineFestival’s over. And so I guess I’m a heel. Dammit….

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One of San Antonio’s more talented young filmmakers is planning to shoot a feature film here in May. He contacted me, wanting to know if I’d be willing to help. Sure, I said. He sent me the script. I’m about halfway through. It’s a bit formulaic for my tastes, but that probably means it’s actually marketable. So far I’m impressed. The script has a solid structure, and it’s clear he knows what he’s doing. When this filmmaker followed up with a phone call, he mentioned that he wanted me to play one of the parts. This took me by surprise. I’d assumed he wanted some help on crew. And maybe he wants that as well. But acting? Other than some short film Pete did which I still haven’t seen, I’ve only ever “acted” in my own pieces. If you put aside some embarrassing instructional videos I shot of myself talking about collecting rare books, and if you ignore a few of my video blogs where I turn the camera on myself, I’ve only ever appeared on camera in cameo performances, usually without dialogue. Well, okay, there was my mockumentary titled “Incident at the River.” I was “acting” all over that piece. But it was just me, improvising…and the only time I was performing with another actor, it was with Carlos Pina, and he’s so talented and natural that he can make anyone look good. (I’d add a link to the piece, but it looks like my videos posted on my old mac.com site don’t work with all browsers–Firefox doesn’t work, but Safari, of all things, does).

Ah, hell–here it is. If this link doesn’t give you picture, try another browser. If that doesn’t work, I have no answer. Try it out:

http://homepage.mac.com/erikbosse/iMovieTheater46.html

My point? I’m no actor.

But I said yes. When this filmmaker is ready to hold auditions, I’ll give it a shot. He told me he was thinking of me when he was writing the part. Maybe he was being honest–the character is pretty verbose and even has a little pontificatory scene. That could be me, as I can be something of a gasbag. But in the script this character is defined as “a man in his 60s.” My questions is, just how old does this guy think I am? I’m having a birthday this Tuesday. I’d have to find my driver’s license to narrow it down to a specific year, because I can never keep track of numbers, but I do know that I’m somewhere between 45 and 50. Tragically old as that may be, it sure ain’t putting me in the category of “a man in his ’60s.” Maybe the plan is to age me with makeup. But if I were expected to sound like an old man, it’ll all come out like a bad Jimmy Stewart impression.

In summation, I’ll be another year older Tuesday. I could look up my age, you know, right now; but the truth is I’m embracing this state of vaguery and confusion to buffer these subconscious intrusive titterings of mortality. If I know only one thing, it’s that in comparison to “a man in his 60s,” I’m just a fresh-faced punk kid. Yeah!

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First Friday was a blast. I set up my projector in Deborah’s place at Blue Star: the Keller-Rihn Studio. Late last year (November, I believe), a beautiful young woman, came knocking on the door of Deborah’s studio. She was a model, looking for a photographer. Deborah was quite taken by her pleasant manner, her beauty, and the fact that she had the lower six chakras tattooed along her spine. This last bit was quite a plus. Deborah has been fascinated by Eastern philosophy for most of her life. She has incorporated this fascination into her art more often than not. I’m a bit too much of a cynic, a skeptic, to bandy about a word like “kismet,” but, man, this was a perfect intersection of two creative personalities. During a very fruitful photo session, Deborah chose four of the strongest images from the shoot. She printed these photos on large pieces of canvas (about two by three feet) and tinted and embellished them with oil paint. They kick ass! I wish I could afford to buy art.

When this model told Deborah that she was a fire dancer, another photo shoot was lined up. I was invited to come take part. I said yes to the invite because, um, you can’t say no to watching a beautiful girl dancing with fire. (Well, perhaps I’m speaking only of myself–but, could you say no?)

I video-taped the girl. I made a quick edit and screened the piece at Jump-Start for their annual performance party.

And so, as Deborah was hoping to sell one of her new painted photos, I brought my projector and played my film on a wall of Deborah’s studio. This seemed to me a smart marketing move.

Sadly, she didn’t sell any of her art. Fucking San Antonio philistines!

But, ultimately, it was a great time. Many people I know and love came blundering in to Deborah’s studio during their First Friday night’s artsy, and for the most part, inebriated peregrinations.

Psst! Meet Me This Weekend!

Monday.

I probably should be doing some serious work on shaping up this Luminaria film stuff, but I keep finding excuses to procrastinate. My current excuse is that it’s too beastly cold to do anything. But today I finally crawled out of the warmth of my bed around 2pm, braved a cold shower, and headed over to C4 to get some work done. It was warm there. And coffee was waiting. And John’s wonderful sandwiches are only a thirty second walk away–out the door, turn right, and right again: there you are, at the Filling Station. Damn fine pizza, too.

I achieved a modicum of productivity, and around 8pm, I drove to the La Fiesta on S. Flores to stock up on provisions. And that brings me up to date.

In those earlier, bed-ridden hours, I was suckling on movies via the NetFlix “Watch Instantly” option.

“The Host,” a Korean monster film. This film has enjoyed a shit-load of praise. The effects are strong and well integrated into the story. It’s kooky, sweet, and, in turns, playful and grisly. I wanted to like it a lot more than I did. The story’s rather unfocused, and it’s a good thirty minutes too long. But if you like monster movies (and don’t we all, to some degree?), I can’t put it down too much–it’s so much better than the basic American monster fare.

“Off the Grid: Life on the Mesa.” This is a documentary about a bunch of social drop-outs living in a region of the New Mexican desert. When I lived in the Big Bend region of Texas, I met some of these types. Too much in love with their firearms and the American flag to be called hippies; yet too enamored of their marijuana and ad hoc co-operative extended communities to be called reactionary militia types. Many of the residents of the Mesa are veterans. They freely (and at times, grimly) acknowledge their mental illness, their PTSD, their difficulties with substance abuse. The residents aren’t all ex-military guys. There are old hippies, women, and runaway kids. The strength of this documentary is that even though these people are all very flawed, we get to see them, on several occasions, coming together and functioning as a healthy, caring community. This is still the Old West. And the folks who live on the Mesa are operating much as I assume the early Anglo settlers of the west behaved. This lone individualism is, of course, a silly fiction. These people show how a community on the very fringe of law and society have to band together to survive. It’s also interesting to see how often they utilize Native American societal structures, such their Council of Elders, and the fact that women are turned to when the decisions of the greatest social conflict have to be considered. Don’t get me wrong. These folks are all massively flawed and fucked up. This is far from a Utopia. But I think it’s a wonderful reminder that if something awful were to happen and we were all reduced to a pre-industrial state, we’d be able to create communities, tribes, councils, and governments. If these obligate fuck-ups can build a functioning community on a blighted desert mesa with no water, electricity, or governmental structure–well, hell, maybe there’s hope for us all if things do go to shit.

“Skins.” This is a British drama about a group of teens living in Bristol. I don’t usually like teen dramas. But this one is so irreverent. These kids are out of control. They’re smoking, drinking, fucking, and drugging. It’s what Ferris Bueller would have been were that movie not directed by that useless snoozer, John Hughes. I have to admit that I never cared for John Hughes. I could never relate to his characters. This is similar to the problems I have with Salinger. I have NOTHING in common with those over-privileged motherfuckers that infest Salinger’s prose or Hugh;s films. But these kids in “Skins” come closer to my teen years. I had a hard time getting into this series with the first episode, But by the halfway mark of that first show I was sold. I’ve only seen the first three episodes of season one, but the writing, acting, production values–all wonderful. But just as important, this show is brave–it takes the audience to some uncomfortable places. Also, there’s loads of nudity. And I rather enjoy that.

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Tuesday.

One of the annual shows at that most crucial of San Antonio galleries, Centro Cultural Aztlan, is the Segundo de Febrero event. This commemorates the Treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo of 1848. This marks the largest land-grab in our nation’s history. Essentially, we wrested 525,000 square miles from Mexico. However, the disputed region of Texas should be included in those spoils of war. The adds another, roughly, 400,000 square miles to the total. Toss in the Gadsden Purchase of 1854, and it’s all take take take. This is, to the Mexican-Americans, their equivalent of “We didn’t land on Plymouth Rock, Plymouth Rock landed on us.”

Last year there was an incredible installation at the Aztlan. A chain link fence was built, running the length of the gallery. But that was okay. You could see the art on the walls of both sides because of big holes cut in the fence.

The major piece this year is San Alamo, or Upside Down St. Anthony, by Rolando Briseño. It’s a life-sized plaster sculpture of St. Anthony suspended upside-down, with the Alamo perched on top, balanced on the soles of his sandals. It was a great show, as always. Malena Gonzalez-Cid and her crew never disappoint. Many of my friends are showing their work at this show; there is also several works by artists who I may have never officially met, yet whose careers I’ve followed for years with respect and excitement.

I was surprised to see Ramon Vasquez y Sanchez. Sure, he had a piece at the show. And certainly he’s no stranger to Centro Cultural Aztlan, seeing as he founded this art and cultural center. But last I had heard, he had headed off to Tucson to serve as a keynote speaker for a February 2nd event in Arizona. But–so it seemed–he had managed to return home in time to be part of our San Antonio event.

He told me he had received a standing ovation in Arizona. No surprise there. He’s a very charismatic man. “You’ve still got a pretty big head, I guess?” I asked him with smile. He shrugged and said something about having suffered a bit of difficulty getting through the door.

The events at Centro Cultural Aztlan are always warm and inviting. It’s a big family event, where everyone’s happy you came. If you haven’t been to the opening of a show there, please go next time. You’ll be glad you did.

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Wednesday.

I woke up early this morning. It’s cold outside, this means it’s cold inside. Ah this drafty old house. I pulled my laptop into bed with me and caught up on my RSS feeds. I recently exported all my subscriptions from my old reader (an online free service, Alesti.org–it has a nice intuitive interface: but there are hours–even days–when it’s down, for reasons I can never understand). I’m now using Google Reader.

I’m sure I could just use iTunes, but iTunes has fucked me over too many times. iTunes is the most counter intuitive, intrusive, proprietary, parasitic piece of shit ever to come out of the Apple Empire. God, how I despise iTunes!

But I digress. Um, where was I?

Ah, yes, Google Reader. I was intrigued when Todd O’Neill mentioned recently on his Twitter feed how he was having a blast with something called Feedly. This is a magazine-type template that acts like an RSS reader–it also lets you post to your various outlets: blog, social media, email, etc. I’m still a bit confused on how to make it work. However, my cursory research into Feedly, brought me to Google Reader. Now I can say a fond farewell to Alesti.

I did managed to drag my ass out of bed by early afternoon. Well, I had managed to make a pot of coffee and send out a few emails in the morning hours. But by early afternoon I got out of the cold old house. I met up with Deborah. She’s finally moving out of the development phase of her video piece for Luminaria. I’m definitely on board to help her shoot and edit the piece. We’ve come up with our model, location, and we are closing in on a solid schedule of shooting.

(My own Luminaria film is still awaiting my attention. I’ve shot the piece. Beautiful footage. I just need to edit it. And I need to hammer it out before the end of next week. That’s when Seme gets back from teaching a workshop in Ecuador (I do envy her life-style!). We’ll be working on another collaboration for her Luminaria proposal.)

Actually, I’m involved in three Luminaria film / dance projects, each a collaborative endeavor. With one I’m functioning in a crew capacity. Another, I’m providing a video backdrop. And the final one, my own, I’m hoping to bring in a live dancer to accompany my short film.

It’s a good thing I don’t currently have a job. Those fucking things always get in the way. Damn, those jobs, those professions, they sure sound like major time-sucks. However, they do indeed make a quick cure of that malady forever hovering over my head. You know, poverty.

After some discussion over a late lunch concerning Deborah’s Luminaria film, we went to her studio. She was painting the outside of her studio at Blue Star for the upcoming First Friday–it’s just two days away.

Here’s the deal. Deborah Keller-Rihn has some new work. It’s in keeping with her current style of photographs printed in black and white large on canvas and colored with thinned oil paint. As a photographer, her work is powerful and amazing. The added embellishment with her skills as a painter make the final work simply extraordinary. Here’s one of canvases that will be on display Friday at her studio: Keller-Rihn Studio (it’s in the Blue Star Arts Complex, upstairs from Three Walls and Cactus Bra–that’s in the same building where Jump-Start Performance Company is):

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Here Deborah is working with a model named Danielle. On one of theses photo shoots Danielle was outside of Deborah’s studio performing a fire dance. On that occasion I happened to be in town and I video-taped this dance. An edit of my shoot was screened at Jump-Start for their 25th Annual Performance Party. I’ll be screening that piece again on a video loop projected onto Deborah’s studio wall this First Friday.

So, come on by.

Deborah was shafted this semester because one of the classes she was planning to teach didn’t make. She’s very very poor this semester. But she has these incredible photo paintings. They are priced to move. Come on by and buy some art, dammit. Deborah has bills to pay! Also, come and watch my video. Really, what are you waiting for? Come and hang out with us!

If you’re not hanging out with Erik and Deborah at Blue Star this Friday, you’d better have a serious excuse! I’m accepting only two reasons. A.) You’re over at C4 Workspace for the art opening of Jesus Morón’s excellent work; or, B.), you’re over at the Guadalupe Cultural Arts Center for CineFestival.

CineFestival is where I hope to be Thursday night. Also, all day Saturday and Sunday. (I’m a bit pissed off that their all-access pass cost 85 bucks! That seems high for a community arts center. I should point out that I’m whining because the previous three years I had the complimentary-all-access-pass because I was a judge. For some reason, my insightfulness as a judge was shrugged off this year. Oh, well….

Any way, these things happen. I’ll happily buy a day pass for both Saturday and Sunday. Friday I’ll be otherwise engaged. And Thursday I’m hoping that the email I received from the San Antonio Film Commission is actually what it seems to be: an invitation to the opening night party. But maybe the party is open to everyone. And that stings, ’cause, you know, I really wanna be special. I’m feeling particularly low tonight, and special would be good….

So, unless you, my reader, are out of town, I guess I’ll be seeing you this weekend. Either at the Guadalupe, or at Deborah’s studio.

See you soon!

Texas Vodka and Candles Lit for Santo Cthulhu

Cafe Cinema is back at the Radius Center, downtown San Antonio. The good folks of NALIP, San Antonio (the local chapter of the National Association of Latino Producers, an organization of which I am one of the executive officers) sponsors this screening event. We’d placed it on hiatus while the Radius was working to bring in a new tenant to run their cafe. The place can seat about a hundred people. Friday night it was nice to see some dear friends who I hadn’t been around much for a couple of months. What with the holidays and a stint working in Dallas, I’d fallen out of touch with my fellow NALIPsters. The evening began with a block of Mexican short films which I believe Drew Mayer-Oakes, the San Antonio Film Commissioner, brought back from the Monterrey Film Festival. I arrived a bit late, so I only got to see one and a half. What I saw looked good.

After a slight intermission–when some Texas brand of Vodka was passed around to the unfortunately small crowd–we turned to the feature. “Yveete” (that’s right, not Yvette). I’d seen this wonderful film at last year’s CineFestival. And, to be honest, I’m not sure if I saw it projected on a screen, or at home on TV–I was one of the judges, and I was given screener DVDs as well as opportunities to view the pieces at the venue, the Guadalupe Cultural Arts Center.

The film holds up well to multiple viewings. It’s sweet and bursting with chingos of heart. It starts out slow. The fact that it was shot on DV is a bit off-putting. But once the action shifts from Oklahoma to Mexico, it really kicks into high gear. I think this is because of two reasons. First, low budget films shot on digital video usually look like shit…but if they’re intelligently constructed and have a strong script you eventually move beyond the initial format prejudice, and it becomes just another time-based visual narrative. But there’s the added bump that once we get to Mexico, we’re given this richer visual pallet (because Mexico is a beautiful country); and, also, the protagonist has to deal with a culture alien to her See, we, the audience, now have sudden conflict: and we always respond well to conflict.

The production standers are pretty low; few if any of the actors are professionals; and, though I love the story, the writing isn’t really that strong. But, for a budget ot 10 grand, it’s an impressive piece. Yveete has an emotional honestly that gets under your skin and clutches at your heart no matter how cynical you might be. It was produced by a young couple from Oklahoma. Rogelio Almeida Marquez and Nora Contreras-Almeid. According to IMDB, he’s the director, she’s the writer and main actress (Yveete).

Track it down and give it a watch. If it seems slow at first, wait. You’ll be glad you did. There are two wonderful low budget films I saw in 2009 I want every one to see. “Yveete,” and “Happy Birthday Harry Malden.”

Take a stroll, at times, outside of the mainstream. There’s great stuff out there.

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Before heading off to Cafe Cinema, I met Russ at C4 Workspace (where I had been holding down the fort–Todd and Debbie had headed to Austin to attend some sort of co-working summit). Russ and I walked over to Tito’s for some of their renowned enchiladas. Russ brought me up to speed about what’s been going on at the Film School of San Antonio (AKA, the media department at Harlandale high school) since the legendary George Ozuna left. Just another simple San Antonio session of chisme. I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again. San Antonio doesn’t run on money, political influence, insider pandering, nepotism, or the good ol’ boy network–nope. (Well, there is some of that.) This city’s white-hot inner engine is fueled by good ol’ fashioned grade “A” chisme–and to translate, I’m talking about balloon juice, chin music, you know, the gossip grapevine. Within the San Antonio arts and cultural community I feel confident in boasting that I have a solid 7 rating (out of 10) of knowing what’s going on behind the scenes. And though I don’t always share the particulars of this info, I can say quite freely, most everyone with pull and power in the San Antonio arts world is fucking nuts.

I was at an art opening the other week. My good friend Ramon Vasquez y Sanchez was showing several of his paintings at a group show at the SAVA gallery downtown. I was sipping a fine vintage of boxed wine and standing there with Ramon and Deborah (we three being the core of Proyecto Locos, a sort of ad hoc art collective) when a certain local art curator walked in with his entourage. One of his sycophants, a man of about 50 with wire-frame glasses, a goatee, and turtleneck (he’s what Mel Brooks would get if he requested from Central Casting a “Middle-Aged Sensitive Bohemian circa Beatnik, USA”). This fellow walked up to Ramon and made some comment about how he loved the art scene in San Antonio, because, “all the artists are supportive of one another.” Even though he had not acknowledged me, I thought I’d weigh in. “You gotta be kidding,” I said. “Us artists in San Antonio all hate each other.” The guy shot me a nasty glance, and decided to continue ignoring me. He kept talking with Ramon about this and that. I have to assume Ramon heard my comment, because I saw that sneaky little smile he lets out when a grumpy troublemaker mutters something true.

Many of us do indeed hate one another, but we all still work together. Within the San Antonio creative community there are no real enemies. We’re a family. And in families, one usually tolerates the occasionally hateful relationship. Because you’re all tied together, you do your best to work together for a greater good. Truth be told, I’d say that in the San Antonio art scene it’s not that bad to be hated. Yes, it’s better to be loved. But if folks are hating on you, they’re at least still talking about you. It’s the fucking kiss of death to be ignored…to be seen as inconsequential. Brrr….

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When I was very young I used to suffer fairly dramatically from asthma. For the most part, I grew out of it by middle school. There were inhalers, pills, and even, for a while, injections, which my mother would give me. I say it’s over, but actually the asthma still creeps back at times, very mildly. Almost always in the colder winter weather. Add strenuous activity to a cold day, and that’s when it’s most likely to pop up. This is one of the reasons I don’t usually go for long bike rides unless it’s over at least 70 degrees. Early last week I was out biking on the Mission Trail, enjoying a sunny day of maybe 65. There was a strong wind at my back, and even though I was pretty far out of shape, I was moving at a giddy clip; and that’s when this hard-ass on a touring bike zoomed past me. I took the bait (unintended, I’m sure) and shifted up to top gear and matched his speed for maybe two miles. That’s when I felt my bronchial tubes clenching up, and so I fell back.

That feeling’s returned tonight. Nothing strenuous. But it’s getting cold again, and I remembered that the fumes off a burning gas heater can also trigger this damn shortness of breath. I’m burning candles to Ganesha, Santo Niño de Atocha, several Orishas, Quetzalcoatl, and Cthulhu–whatever it takes to speed up the appearance of those sweet 100 degree days of summer.

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I basically frittered away an unproductive weekend. Well, I did do laundry. Mostly I was watching bad movies from the NetFlix view now selection. It’d been decades since I’d seen the 1964 film First Men in the Moon. Of course I’d seen it before–it featured stop-motion creatures by Ray Harryhausen. Like most of the sci-fi films from this period it’s a real travesty. I mean, the science in the films of the fifties and sixties is just appalling. At least H. G. Wells was long dead by the time this come out. The Harryhausen effects and the art design in general are fairly groovy. Lionel Jeffries, the eccentric scientist, is a joy to watch. There’s this wonderful scene where’s he’s explaining his plans to the man-of-action character (played fairly flatly by Edward Judd), and the scientist falls back against his space ship, like he’s receiving a lover’s embrace, and he snuggles there, rubbing against his grand machine as he explains the “science” of his anti-gravity paint. There’s also this tiny scene with Peter Finch, who was not credited. According to Wikipedia, he was in the vicinity–perhaps an adjacent sound stage–and when the actor hired for this tiny role failed to show up, he offered his assistance. He’s in the film for maybe thirty seconds, but has quite a few lines. It’s like he’s stepped in from another movie (which isn’t far from the fact)–but he manages to be rather cartoonish, in keeping with the film’s tone, and chewing the scenery like a terrier gnawing on a rubber band. I wouldn’t recommend this film to many people, but it’s a fun way to piddle away a chunk of a chilly Saturday.

My Second Screening of 2010

There have been little clusters of creative activity in my life. Often during these periods colleagues in the local film community will invariably ask me, “hey, where have you been–I never seem to see you any more?” On these occasions I really need to turn the tables. “I got stuff screening all over town–where have YOU been?”

The month’s not over yet, and I have shot, edited, and screened (for paying audiences, mind you) two short film projects. All I can say is, I wish more members of the local film community would have been in the audiences, showing their support. I saw painters, dancers, musicians, actors, writers, arts administrators, but, filmmakers? Not so much.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not crowing about my prodigious productivity– I’m just needling all those San Antonio filmmakers who I so rarely see at art events. The fact is, both of these recently produced projects of mine found their way to me with no heavy lifting on my part. The first, an abstract piece of a beautiful young fire dancer, came into being because ST Shimi, the artistic director at Jump-Start Performance Company, asked if I had a short video piece I would like to have screened for the 25th annual Jump-Start Performance Party. What a high honor! I decided to cut together the footage I took of a photo shoot Deborah Keller-Rihn recently held outside her studio with a model she had recently met who is also a fire dancer.

The second project also came calling on me. When recent transplant Seme Jatib (an extraordinary dancer from Monterrey) asked around the San Antonio dance community if anyone knew of a filmmaker she could collaborate with, Amber Ortega-Perez mentioned my name. I met with Seme in a Starbucks in the Quarry, and two weeks later we had a show at the first W-I-P of 2010. W-I-P (Works in Progress) is the monthly event sponsored by the Jump-Start Performance Company and the San Antonio Dance Umbrella and held at Jump-Start. ST Shimi and Amber Ortega-Perez co-curate the series. Last night was a particularly strong show. There were three performances.

The opening was a dance piece with three performers choreographed by Maggie Lasher. I really like the high metaphoric tone of the piece. It was a conceptual modern dance piece featuring, as a prop, a bizarre giant fiberglass industrial ball (Maggie’s husband, who scavenged the piece, believes it’s a jacuzzi filter).

The second performance was by Laurie Dietrich. She’s a company member with Jump-Start–writer, actor, director, etc. She presented a solo performance art piece. Melissa Marlowe, one of San Antonio’s more gifted actors, was sitting across the aisle from me, and she was praising Laurie’s thespian chops. Well, no shit. Not only was Laurie completely on top of the piece as a performer, but the work itself, her script, is tight, clever, and structurally solid. I loved this piece! Hopefully, she’ll expand it and we’ll all get to see a polished staging of the work soon.

The final piece was Seme. I’d been in the theater earlier for a short rehearsal. Billy Muñoz was controlling the tech. I knew that when I handed off the DVD to him, it’d be in good hands. If there were any glitches in what I provided, he’d be on top of things. I might add that he did a fantastic job (as always) with the lighting. Anyway, after a couple of run-throughs, I left Seme and her mom and went upstairs to kill some time with Deborah in her studio. By the time of the show, Deborah and I walked down to get our tickets. I was pleasantly surprised to see that my name was in the program, alongside Seme’s. The projection played smooth. We had planned to use the Jump-Start’s eight foot screen, but in the rehearsal, the projection on the rear black wall looked so cool, that we decided to go with it. I’m glad we did. It brought the projection down lower so that Seme could interact with the projected words and images. I was amazed by her performance. Sure, I’d seen her do the basic choreography on three (or was it four?) occasions, but I’d never really seen her pull out all the stops. I’ve worked on film projects with over a dozen dancers, and the process is fascinating–well, for someone like me with no real dance background. They often run through the choreographic phrases in basic, not so strenuous, abbreviated gestures. And this is what I had seen from Seme in the two weeks we’ve known each other. But tonight, I got to see the energy and emotional impact of the piece. Also, it was great to watch her make certain changes which occurred to her while she was in the moment. A good dancer is like a good actor. It’s all about making a choice–you can’t waffle. No. You decide, and you do it. I knew going in that Seme is an extraordinary dancer, but it wasn’t until I watched the emotion crossing her face during the pivotal point near the end that I truly realized how lucky San Antonio is to have a dancer of her caliber…and how privileged I was to be able to work with her on a project. I can only hope we will continue to work together. The applause following the piece was long, robust, and honest. And, afterward, for the critical response portion, Shimi came out and asked if I, as the video-provider, might want to come up on stage. Seme said, without a beat, “Erik, yes.” I believe she was a bit nervous, and wanted some moral support. She shouldn’t be. She’s very articulate.

Even though I had told Deborah I wasn’t going to bother getting up on stage even if asked, I went ahead. I used to be terrified of public speaking. Honestly. But in my twenties I was forced, in several creative writing classes, to not only read my work aloud, but to defend it from the jibes of fellow students. This was, however, the first time I was seated on a theater stage with bright lights on me. Damned if I could see who was asking me or Seme questions. They were just shadowy forms back behind the bright lights.

It was a great night. Even though there were probably not more than 40 people in the audience, it was the strongest and most positive response to any work of which I’ve been involved. I should point out that most of the applause was directed at Seme. As Dino Foxx said of another beautiful, extraordinarily fit, and awesomely talented dancer, ST Shimi: “I see you so often that sometimes I forget just how sexy you are.” At the risk of over-simplifying my artistic impulse, the reason that I, as well as my friends Russ and Deborah, like to photograph and video-tape dancers is that we love to see beautiful bodies in motion. But there’s also the fact that I’m about as graceful as an arthritic walrus, and, with clever and judicious use of camera placement and movement, and with canny editing, I can, in a limited manner, join the performance, allowing the camera to enter into the choreography. I still have a lot to learn here, but it’s a very rewarding collaborative interdisciplinary realm in which to work.

Keep an eye out for further performances by Seme Jatib. It’ll be worth your while. We’re planning a collaborative event for Luminaria. Make sure to come to the dance stage at Luminaria. It’ll be in HemisFair Park, next to the Instituto Cultural De Mexico. Not only will there be plenty of dance presentations, but there will be several videos projected. I’ll have a short dance video featuring ST Shimi (hopefully she’ll be dancing on the stage in front of the projection). My good friend Deborah Keller-Rihn will have a projected dance-related piece. And, finally, Seme Jatib will dance a piece titled “Echo.” The plan is for me to provide video augmentation.

Let’s hope video and dance come together in a serious and lasting relationship in San Antonio. When done right, it works very well. And, tonight, I think my crude and novice work in this field rather new to me showed some promise. Working with Seme is wonderful. I find her very inspiring. Deborah’s still my favorite artistic collaborator, probably because we’re so similar in character. But with Seme, the fact that we have different sensibilities creates its own rewards.

Last night I got to meet some of Seme’s family. Her mother drove in from Monterrey for the performance. And also I finally got to meet Seme’s husband (who she’s always referred to as “my husband.”) Nice guy, and it takes me forever to learn a name, but I think he’s Kevin. Also I got to meet one of Seme’s friends, also named Erik–and by that, I mean Eric. He’s a yoga instructor she works with. Anyway, this guy, Eric Miller, video-taped the performance on what I think might have been a flip camera. Recently he uploaded it to YouTube. Here’s the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h892BiSQ9eY

I’ve just set up a Vimeo account. Here’s a link to the edited video projection I provided. (If you watch this, make sure to see Eric Miller’s link above–his video will give you a sense of the heavy emotional palette with which Seme works.):

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Yesterday morning I was up at the ungodly hour of 7:30. After a shower (and I still haven’t fixed my water heater) I headed over to C4. Debbie was shocked to see me. Yeah, I’m not a morning person. I was there to meet Jim Dawes. I know JIm because he runs the Final Monday Free Writers Workshop at Gemini Ink. But until recently I never knew Jim taught architecture over at the downtown campus of UTSA.

Anyway, one of his classes had chosen, as a project, to design a “film institute.” This isn’t the real deal–simply an academic exercise. Too bad, there. What they’re working on would be wonderful…you know, if only….. Because of my status as a filmmaker, occasional teacher, and festival producer, Jim thought I’d be the perfect person to come and talk to his class. (Though the fact is, I was probably the only guy who came close to fitting the parameters yet who was also available. And unless I’m out of town, I’m pretty much always available.)

It was a lot of fun. There were only four students. They were young, smart, articulate, and full of extraordinary potential. In short–they’re adorable. And, well, I hope they find their way into major architectural, design, or engineering firms: the bottom line is I like them and I hope they are instrumental in building our future.

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We can’t always be in the loop. Today I had to learn from fucking FaceBook this key piece of San Antonio film news: the great Sam Lerma is taking over George Ozuna’s old gig at the Film School of San Antonio, aka, the media department at Harlandale High School. Now Sam can dine at a finer level of taqueria, because I’m sure that there must be a serious pay hike. I was shocked when I discovered how poorly paid are news photographers (meaning video shooters). Congratulations, Sam! I’m sure the kids on the south-side will benefit immensely from your professionalism and creativity!

Don’t Try and Read These Abbreviated Hieroglyphs

My creative process, such as it is, is a fucking mess. Maybe one of the reasons I always sabotaged myself in math classes in school is that when I’m asked to show my work, it’s a mess. There are scribbled notes with weird abbreviations and hieroglyphs, mostly known just to me, and many known just to me at that very moment. Showing my work means nothing to other people. It’s completely indecipherable. My right brain and left brain are barely on speaking terms–never have been. And the manner in which they communicate is choppy, guttural, and generally near incomprehensible.

Everyone seems to have their own method to turn raw and abstract sensory input and cognitive impulse into a play or a etching, a sonnet or a dirge. Because most artists work alone, all we tend to see is the finished work. I know a few artists whose processes I’ve observed, and of those, most are filmmakers. This is one of the reasons I like to collaborate. Especially with artists from other disciplines. I’m essentially a voyeur. Really, I just want to pop the hood and take a peek at it all. One of my best friends, Deborah, is principally a photographer, though she’s worked in painting, sculpture, film, etc. At first working with her was rather frustrating. She kept changing her mind about this project or that. And then I realized that her process really wasn’t so different than mine. A lot of false starts and floundering around. Hours spent drinking coffee, doing anything but the work itself, and suddenly, it all falls together. Yeah, that makes perfect sense to me.

I’ve also had the good luck to work with several dancers. Russ pulled me into this world, and it’s quite rewarding. Who wouldn’t want to photograph beautiful bodies in motion? The current project is with Seme Jatib. We hope to pursue a fruitful collaboration with her choreography and dancing, and my live, real time video projection. This is all new to me. I’m leaning into the learning curve. But until we get to that point, we’re working on a project for the upcoming W-I-P (works in progress) that Shimi and Amber put on every month at the Jump-Start Performance Company over at Blue Star. I’m currently (well, I’m blogging right now) cutting a 6ish minute piece of video which will serve as a single channel pre-recorded presentation, and Seme will dance. One of the things I learned from working with Amber is that modern dance isn’t so locked down and predictable as some other forms of dance. If a nuanced move of another dancer opens up the possibility for an embellishment, it might just happen. A sort of impromptu choreographic riff. In fact, when you listen to those masters of mid-period hard bebop, like Horace Silver and Clifford Brown, it’s clear that the basic structure and phrases were all worked out. But there was room for narrow improvisation. And so, with Seme, I’m reworking my approach every few days. I’m sniffing around, trying this, trying that. And now, basically because I need to get a DVD to her by Wednesday, it’s all coming together. The trick is to find ways to convey the essence of the piece with the footage I’ve shot, as well as the text and effects I’m currently generating. I’m beginning to realize why she’s so keen on working with a video artist using VJ software–real-time projected video manipulation is made to order for modern dance.

The show is Wednesday, January 27th. Just head on out to the best theater in town, Jump-Start Performance Company–it’s in the Blue Start Art Complex, off S. Alamo in King William. 7pm. It’s only 5 bucks! Other than Seme Jatib (with humble assist by yours truly) you will also see works in progress by Maggie Lasher and Laurie Dietrich. See you there.

This is Seme:

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And this is where I am right now at my edit.

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Yeow! I’m thinking another seven hours of work…for this six minute piece. So, you see. Even when the process has been clarified, the long tedium of the work really ain’t for the weak of heart.

So, back to work!

The Friendly Neighborhood

I really should be working on the video backdrop for Seme’s dance piece this coming Wednesday at Jump-Start, but, really, I am the king of procrastination. Well, actually, I’m not completely useless. I’ve put in a good three hours tonight. Get back to it tomorrow.

Ah, but today–a fine San Antonio Saturday in January. Finally, a reasonable day. Pleasant, warm even. This is what I expect from winter in South Texas. The iPhone promised 78 today, but I doubt it ever got over 73. There was a big wind in from the north, bringing all that cold down from the arctic realms of Wichita Falls and Anadarko. The wind served me well on my bike ride this afternoon. I was flying. Could have gone all the way to Laredo. But, I had to turn around and pedal back–slowly and gruelingly….

But, really, the bottom line is that out at Mission Espada I was flopped out on the grass, just above the river, basking in the sun. How wonderful!

Last night I was meeting with Seme at C4. As we were winding down, Anglea from Slab Cinema stopped by. She wanted some help with a quick video edit. After saying goodbye to Seme, I checked out the video job. It seemed absolutely simple and doable … but there were a few weird things in the codec of the video file. My antiquated version of Final Cut was faltering. I hate to confess this, but I turned to iMovie to get the job done. And it got the job done. iMovie is a quirky little program that, at times, can do amazing things.

Angela invited me to meet some of her friends over at the Friendly Spot, that outdoor bar and eatery adjacent to Tito’s on South Alamo. René Guerrero of Madhatters fame is running the place. Everyone seems to love René–and why not? He’s the best! The Friendly Spot has a playground, so it’s popular with families with kids–such as Angela and Rick, who were so kind to buy me a couple of beers. This couple seem to know everyone in our neighbor. I thought I was connected. Nope. I’m a novice in the King William / South Town networking realm.

I was bemused and charmed to see that René had a large selection of ponchos and blankets so patrons could bundle up and keep warm while sitting outside and dining and drinking and keeping an eye on their kids. But, really, it was a fairly mild night. I had a nice time meeting some new people.

Tonight I met Rick and Angela again. Deborah and I attended a site-specific performance produced by Jump-Start Performance Company. Basically it was a one-woman show starring ST Shimi, staged at her home. She’s married to the artist Oscar Alvarado, and their next-door neighbors are Rick and Angela Martinez, of Slab Cinema–and Rick and Angela were also in attendance tonight. San Antonio is essentially a small town.

The piece was mildly avant garde. Very watchable. All in all, a top notch production. Small and intimate. The audience was about 15. A cozy group of people and a bittersweet (actually more sweet than bitter) voyeuristic experience.

One of the great strengths of Jump-Start is that they’re a family. To see the company members together and interacting is a wonderful thing. They are all good people doing extraordinary work. Twenty-five years, and still going strong. Wow!

When Shimi asked me back in December if I had some video to provide for the annual Jump Start anniversary party (which I always attend), I had to say, Yes! I’m huge fan of so many company members (as well as the fringe folks): such as Steve Bailey, Monessa Esquivel, Annela Spector, ST Shimi, Billy Muñoz, Dino Foxx, Max Parrilla, Micheal Verdi, and add the amazing Amber Ortega-Perez, the sublime Daniel Jackson, and the entirety of the Renaissance Guild (who have moved on to the Little Carver–we all wish them well). Damn, that’s a shit-load of goodness, eh? And for me to be asked to add my creative voice to this chorus…well, fuck yeah!

Oh, shit. How did it get to be three in the morning? I gotta hit the sheets. There’s still a lot of video editing on the morning…..